Holy and Magnificent God, thank you for being better than
anything my world can offer me. Thank you for calling me to a
higher standard than the world accepts. Thank you for giving me the
promise of a better future than any human can imagine. Thank you
for giving me a high calling to live up to you. In Jesus’ holy name
I pray. Amen.
when i am focused in on something.. putting much of my thought into what i desire, what i think is good, what i imagine will work best — i am still seeking to put God first. i am saying to Him, “Father, this is your life — this is what i am working on, if it is part of your plan — i know it will be blessed in happening. if not, i trust you, too.” but.. i am realizing.. that when i am giving speculations and desires for the future — God could be doing something in the downfall that i am blind and deaf to because of my own small desires. i think, sometimes, most of the time, i am thinking very small scale. i have low expectations for my life and my soul than what God has in store for us. this is why i am constantly in shock and awe of the way He can and does rock me, wreck me, shake my core. it’s fearful and freakin’ awesome.
my small scale mind gets awakened.. and suddenly i remember how powerful the God i serve and fear and love is. He holds us in His purpose with love and resolve for the things that benefit us — not in the ways we tend to think in, not in the short-term — but in building our lives to be a foundation in the kingdom.
i get so excited, sometimes, when i don’t get what i want. because in my heart, i feel that God is protecting me and preparing me to live in His time. it’s still kinda scary. things are all up in the air…
i don’t know where God will pull me career wise.. and frankly, i don’t care. He has made me an open soul and girl.. i can go anywhere He leads on a whim.
i don’t know what is in store for my relationship with p. i know, with Christ’s love and help, that i will love him, my brother, and seek to build him and push him towards the Cross for my whole life. in one capacity or another — whether he is near or far, remembering to be that support and love. unbeknownst to us, the future will change everything that we are comfortable with now. don’t know when or how.. but we are in for an overhaul. i know what i desire, but i don’t know how in tune those desires are with God’s plans. we’ll see. excited.
i don’t know how ends will continue to meet. i don’t know how friendships will change and grow or fall away. i don’t know how my interactions and ability to connect with family will change, shift. i don’t know how my involvement are devotion to 1.21 will develop. these are the things i don’t know, these are the things that i will soon be on the other side of and will know how God’s will played into how they will play out. i do know that His glory will be revealed in all of these things. that — i am sure of.
gracias a Dios.